1. Stop feeling sorry for yourself -, pitty party. go through the process of megemeszteni, es
2. start educating yourslef, knowledge will come, this is going to be a journey until you live it never ends.
3. you need to get spiritual to understand you and your body (I can’t have this and that. stop resisting let it go.. you can have everything in the right time and the right palce. plan ahead
4. use what you learn on the journey and use it in st. that’s you feel your call and service that thoughts and by doing it you will service people around and giving is receiving and is not about your body and food anymore..
On 24 december 2012 I was at the doorway ( bejarati ant elott) to step out to this spiritual world..
get vunerable, joy/gratitude..